Rhythm in the Heart
I used to enjoy the shapes of words
And cracking them into line;
But most I enjoyed the roll of them,
Most I enjoyed their rhythm:
The heart that beat
At the heart of my words.
Bloodmud
I'm standing in a field,
Opening up my heart...
Or rather...
I'm opening up my chest,
And taking my heart out–
Holding
it in my hand,
Tender.
Feeling the failing beat and pulse
As the blood drains from my
face,
Out through my soles and
Soaks into the friable earth—
Making bloodmud.
I scoop up a handful of bloodmud
And sculpt a man.
I scoop
up a handful of bloodmud
And sculpt a woman.
I breathe the word into their mouths
And they come alive.
They stare into each others eyes,
For ever and ever.
Then reach
into each others chests
And pull out their hearts.
They hold
them in their hands,
Tender
The blood seeps out of the bloodmud.
The man and woman, returning
to dust,
Are caught by the breeze and
Scattered about the field
Making more bloodmud.
I scoop up a handful of bloodmud,
And sculpt a dog.
I scoop
up a handful of bloodmud,
And sculpt a bitch.
I breathe the word into their mouths
And they come alive.
They look inquisitively,
Turn their heads to one side,
Ears
pricked,
They tentatively sniff,
Then turn away, pad into the
world
Forever unaware of each other
Until the time of heat.
I scoop up a handful of bloodmud
And sculpt a tom.
I scoop
up a handful of bloodmud
And sculpt a queen.
I breathe the word into their mouths
And they come alive.
They stare into each others eyes,
Until one yawns,
Then they
slowly turn away,
Slink into the world
Forever unaware of each
other
Until the time of heat.
The bloodmud
Is drying out, and
I need my heart to live.
So return it to my chest.
Tender.
Driving
The night is a thick dark tangibility
That flows around the
warm, smoke-filled
Interior of the old Rover.
Night flows across this unstreamlined slab
As the noise of
wind scrabbling at the
Broken rubber window seals.
The headlights try to pierce the thick,
Slow-moving river
of night,
But the beams are swallowed, contemptuously,
A
few yards from the imposing nudge bar,
The last, solid cylinder
of which appears,
Reassuringly, in my line of sight.
In the hedgerows grow, unordered–
And yet with a regularity
that matches
The dull, hypnotic flow
Of cat's eyes and white
lines–
Scabrous, hobbled, anonymous trees.
The Avons whine on the road.
The vee-eight reassures,
Presses on, eager,
Fragments of a Proth
(For Angela and Mark)
It is late spring,
Balanced delicately on the cusp of change.
The stock hangs heads heavy with scent,
A reminder of childhood
when its sweet smell
Would ride on the breeze through open windows.
And the tractors labour fitfully through sweet hay,
The cut
smell of it hanging thick in country air.
At this cusp,
The world finds focus in a ritual,
A ritual
of nexus: wedlock.
The ritual finds focus in a ring:
A symbol
of unity and a symbol of the world,
A symbol of endless continuity
and rebirth,
The circularity of symbol and substance
Sucking
in still more power,
And breathing it back into your blood.
The purpose and result of this rite
Is enthralling for you
both,
To hold you by powers unseen, unheard of
Outside of
lives normally free of such magic.
A rite of life, signified
By a symbol on the left.
But
for the ring,
Your joining leaves no physical evidence,
You look, smell, taste just the same;
But your blood beats a
new rhythm,
Each breath snakes around the other's
And your
skins, unnoticed by the congregation,
Become shared, cell and
cell.
By this ritual all is changed.
Embraced by the gentle fold of countryside
You are three
times blessed:
Once by the country itself,
Twice by your
own conjunction.
1976
There was nothing between us
Except my desire to meet you
In the middle, translate us to we.
The burning sun of that
summer
Burnt down on me, shackled my
Freedom to decide to
those moments
When the clouds obscured the sun.
Which was
hardly ever.
The hot sun burned within me,
And the words
I longed to say
Died in the hot desert,
The arid land of
my mouth.
We stayed close as a binary,
Influenced each by
each
But still on separate paths.
We both were suns
And warmed the other.
But the one sun over us
Blinded us.
It took cool nighttime,
White moon time,
To spiral
our orbits
Closer, bring our still
Seperate warmths to unity.
The night air was cool
Empty but for the night jar's cry,
Until you ran your fingers
Through my hair,
Filled the
night with
Your simple words:
"You are nice."
Which
warmed me.
I began to melt.
The heat of the day
Was
from me.
The oppression
Of that one sun
Was lifted.
I looked at you
And all the things
I'd wished to say
Over each and every
Long hot day
All rushed to speak
at once.
My mask was nightime cool.
The warmth for us
Burnt within me,
But my mask you
Translated as ice.
You smiled at me and turned away.
All my words burned inside,
Like dry sand, would not cohere,
I forced a smile. You smiled -
And turning you walked away.
Airliners over London
Winter sunset.
And to the west the dying sun
Burns the fringes of the clouds,
Burns the ragged sky red.
A red stained river flows
Past offices and flats,
And
on past sterile, static,
Immutable, graying concrete,
And
on and on past shops,
Warehouses, hospitals,
Service stations,
computer centres.
I do not know how many
Terraced houses.
The houses huddle close,
Side by side, back to back,
Their
order broken only by
Worn green squares, dumps
For crisp packets,
paper bags,
Newspapers (dirty and torn),
Used needles, take-away
food cartons.
I do not know how many
Used condoms.
Roads order the houses,
And offer a place to breathe.
They are out there,
Breathing now, the
Mods and Teds, ravers,
Old punks and skins,
Old hippies, older beats,
Grungy
kids, travellers,
Mothers pushing push-chairs,
Pulling shopping
trolleys,
Old men reminiscing,
Tired workers returning home,
Whores, pimps and junkies.
I do not know how many
Alcoholics,
tramps, nor how many
Sleep beneath the arches
Of bridges tonight.
And on these roads,
Cars spit noise and smoke.
See their
glittering chrome,
The shining paint-work.
Hear the tyres
squeal,
Racing from junctions.
See the Fords and BMWs,
Vauxhalls and Hondas,
Mercedes, Nissans.
I do not know how
many
Cars envelope drivers,
Intent on their tangled
Ribbons
of road,
Isolated from the London cold.
The tyres touch the runway.
The runway lights blur.
Soon, the passageways,
Lounges, Customs, automatic doors,
Soon the exit signs, taxis,
The cold night. London.
Helicopter over London
The black helicopter
In the London sky
Waits, always watching:
A sleek black fish
Rippling through the gray
Above the
gray city.
Inside are men dressed
In black: watching always.
The black helicopter
Is sometimes still
And the streets
echo
With the hollow sound
Of a thousand coffin
Lids
closing.
Mystery compounds mystery.
No blackbird raises
A bright yellow eye to look at it,
No black crow heaves itself
From the cold brown earth,
And
the sparrows are silenced.
The black-barked pollarded trees
Are hard iron columns that would
Pierce a sky they cannot own.
The sky is owned by
The invisible men in black,
Wrapped
in black,
Carried in black,
Who paint the sky black
With their black exhaust,
Their black helicopter
Weaving
twilight into the sky.
Good Evening Mr Woden
A breeze slipped between
Our ankles as a cat would.
The branches of the trees fanned across
The orange street
lights, whipped back again.
His skin reflected back
The orange of the lights.
"Did you know," he asked "That the world is a
Perpetual ball-bearing
in the great machine of space."
I confessed I did not. He laughed,
"It's just the nonsense that I talk!"
He grabbed me by the
arm,
Led me into the bright lights
Of an amusement arcade.
He slipped a shiny coin into a slot,
Immersed himself in
a pinball-table,
His eyes becoming liquid pools of
Concentration
as the ball-bearing
Crashed from the bumpers,
And bells
rang, fragments of
Melody chased and crossed
Each other
as the digital numbers
Racked
Up.
Occasionally there was
A lounder crack as the ball
Jumped
from a bumper into
The toughened glass.
Mr Woden didn't
flinch,
Kept the ball rolling,
The digits
increasing,
Until a loud clack
Signalled a replay.
Eventually the game passed on,
As everything does. Mr Woden
Desultorily flicked the flippers,
Flapped them as the ball
Headed down the centre-slot.
He offered me the replay: I declined.
With an airy flick
of the wrist
He declaimed "Ah, some kid
Can have it," and
took me
By the arm again.
I could see he was almost tempted
By F-17 and Combat
Trooper
As we headed for the door.
Outside, the breeze caught
Mr Woden's cape. I looked away.
I could hear the faint slap
Of the sea against the breakwater.
Mr Woden gambolled, climbed upon a fence,
Balanced with grace
along its top,
Bounced down with a smile.
"You can't keep a good man down,"
He said, and suddenly
Waltzed me around a bollard,
Singing the refrain to
Tom Traubert's Blues.
He stopped then,
Looked up at the moon.
"I am two people,"
he said
"One half of me faces the light,
The other faces
dark emptiness.
I have two faces: One of which
Looks toward
the centre,
While the other looks elsewhere."
The moon seemed
cold and
Laughed in some standing water.
"And I have two
states, one of which
Flows, and melts, and flows,
While
the other is cold and hard."
Small wavelets slapped gently
Against the harbourside.
I coughed gently, asked:
"You seek reconciliation
Between
these uncomplementary faces?"
He nodded. I took a bottle from my pocket.
Wild Night
Here among the storm-tossed trees
Hear the wind-buffeted
leaves
Rub and scratch their song
Amid the wild night's
howling.
Rough winds tear and lash
The black on black fat-bellied
Clouds that race and rip
Amid the wild night's howling.
How short the spring and summer.
Too soon the leaves
and seasons
Have turned again, and dazzling
Autumn colours
hide the cold's return.
The dark dull days
At a year's bitter end
Speak of
gray in gray,
Of cold ice snapping shut
The waters of
lakes and
Slime bottomed puddles.
And now how long the nights?
No promise of the spring's
return.
The hard, cold earth,
The shattered ice,
The rotting leaves,
Beneath the wild night's howling.
I can see no end to these
Windblown winter nights.
But for a moment
The wind was hushed,
The trees
stopped their screaming,
As you reached out your heart
And hand to me
Amid this wild night's howling.
Puck Bird
Puck bird, scissors grinder,
You stoop and wheel
On silent night-time wings.
In darkness you dart and twist,
Snap shut on moths
the beak
That has closed on the teats
Of suckling
goats.
I have heard you squeal
In a monstrous little
voice
Hymns to the cold, fruitless moon.
But I have never seen you
Unless it was
your silhouette
That fleetingly obscured the stars,
Or you were the black cross
I once saw, spread
across the moon.
Youth
The muscles of youth
Are nerved to breaking point.
A moment's inactivity
Is a quiet death
Which
does not suit
New bloomed skin.
So into the quiet morning
Filled with sunlight,
Insect hum, the acrid smell
Of rotting pears
and grapes,
Comes the scratch of voices,
Cracking
and screeching,
Insistent, energetic, piercing,
To fill the void that the silence
Of a moment's
silence brings.
The Bridge
There is no star-light
(How dark it makes
the night seem).
The river tugs my soul
(Shall
I toss a copper coin to you?),
And the other
bank draws me
(The undergrowth is dark there).
This is how it is:
The old wooden bridge crosses the river
But
I can hardly see the rotten boards;
Gaps disclose
the dark and laughing river.
I slip and
stumble on rain-wet
slime;
It is not safe.
But it is a way.
"Is this bank?"
And back I go again.
Upstream,
The swans eat bread,
A baby
doll
Lazily circles
And drowns,
Ignorant
of my vacillations.
The Wind
The wind sings in my bamboo chimes.
Stars
chase the ripples across the lake.
When the
wind howls, it brings its knife.
Waste
Look at this wasteland.
What are these ruins?
The dusty yellow air.
Motes in the sunlight.
Broken colonnades,
Broken windows.
In the
shopping mall
Dead mannequins
Arms open wide
Asking to dance.
What would we dance?
A fractured waltz.
Watchfield!
In 1975 the man moved
The Windsor Free
Festival to Watchfield.
Watchfield? Where
the fuck?
Still, we thought we'd go,
Terence and Colin
and I,
And some Welsh guy we'd
Discovered
during the night,
Skywatching on Cradle Hill.
We idled with the other freaks,
Under a sun
that was Californian,
Drifted past spice islands
Scented with patchouli
And sandalwood, joss-sticks
And sweet hash.
The irritating bluebottle of bad music
Followed
us wherever we went.
Then: A long, drawn out,
squeal cut through it,
My name held on a dotted
breve
Somewhere above the C above middle C.
And suddenly my arms were full of Mary,
Her arms around my neck, her legs
Around my
waist, her smiling mouth
So close to mine, our
faces hidden
Behind the penumbra of her long
curly
Hippie hair, her brown eyes sparkling.
Then: She kissed me.
A Photographer's Eulogy to Westbury Cement Works
What is that dark plume your chimney spews?
Steam, CO2, toxins? Controversy
Rages. But we
photographers love you,
It seems - a subject
for our photography.
Tall stack and smoke
provide the thirds to frame
A glorious sunset's
last burning flame
Or fat grey clouds heavy with
unshed rain.
Though Wiltshire provides us
hills, downs, and trees–
Our aesthetics demand
starker geometries.
On Inshaw's 'The Badminton Game'
Two women weave a shuttlecock with
A catgut
twonk into the twilight.
Lissome in their Laura
Ashley, light
On their feet, fleet, they flit
Between net and nowhere, night and
The last dying
rays of day's dead end.
I could love both
badminton players
As Inshaw did, inspired by
their
Long-limbed grace to limn them
Immobilised
in a careless, carefree,
Moment in our twilight
gardens.
Watched Pot
I sometimes watch a pot
And despite my grandmother's
Assertions to the contrary
It never fails to
boil.
Many times I've stirred
A pot with a knife
and,
After the contents have
Boiled (despite
my watching),
No strife has overtaken my life
--
Much to my aunt's surprise...
And many times I've plucked
That knife from
the watched pot
After stirring and, finding its
handle hot,
Dropped it to the floor,
But have
yet to open my door subsequently
To find a tall
dark stranger there.
But from Mum, and auntie and gran there is
A truth that certainly lingers–
That we aren't
as old as our teeth,
But are as old as our little
fingers.
Unseasonal Drought
Acres become dust.
Earnest farmers, gathering
Harvests in June,
Know loss.
Magic now? Or,
perhaps,
Questionable rites?
Slowly, the useless
valleys whither,
Expecting yowling zephyrs.
The Seasons
Eyes open:
To a sunbright world
That smells of lambs,
Dandelions and daises,
Through which the
Tractors labour across
Green fields turning
gold,
Green Wiltshire rustling,
Through
gold turning brown,
Old winds swirling,
Adrift in time.
Ready to sleep:
Eyes close.
A crow cracks
The autumn stillness;
Regards the land,
Then heaves itself,
Sighing, skyward.
These hills reek of time.
I do not know
you
Who walked these hills before me.
But on every Wiltshire hill
I can feel you
breathing
Through the cracked chalk,
Hear
your voices talk;
Old dry whispering voices
That will talk on when
I, too, am an old
dry man.
Give me your hand.
We have given each other spring
So we
can bloom
Throughout the autumn;
We have
given each other summer
To shore against
our winter.
Hand in hand,
Over the hills,
We walk.
All that exists is this form.
This form, this order,
Structures my thoughts:
I miss you;
And the hills.
I think that we shall be married -
Wiltshire
whispers it on the wind.
And the downs should
know -
They have seen the courting, flirty,
Naughty couples smile and cry.
This form, this order,
Bends and shapes
As the hills -
Curves as your
Hips and
waist;
Is soft and downy,
And then unyielding.
You, me, the hills,
And the old black
crow,
Discrete, yet of the pattern,
Cross
and intersect:
Weave a net
To catch us
all up in.
All that exists is this form.
The form of a small hand,
Consoling one
who has lost
As you have lost.
Yet we are here:
Out on the downs
(The
broken bones of the glacial march)
Where
a thousand hands
Have clasped and unclasped
A thousand bodies
Coupled and uncoupled
A thousand dreams have been
Dreamed and forgotten
Where you and I
Know each other
By the touch of our hands.
Shall we walk on?
Hand in hand,
Over the hills,
We walk.
Hills associative,
Regenerative,
Imaginative,
Reeking of time.
(Memories of Copheap:
Being taken to a hill
So distant to small
legs
That it must be a secret
Only fathers
can know.
Knowing nothing then of hills,
All that returns
Of a bleak autumn day
Is a childish excitement,
And the lychgate.)
Now the downs
Around the town
Are as
familiar
As the incline
And syncline
Of you.
Elm to Arn,
Arn to Cradle,
Cradle to
Battlesbury,
Battlesbury to Middle,
Middle
to Scratchbury,
Scratchbury to Cotley.
And, visible from all,
Distant, giant,
Lonely Cley.
Old hills all
Their backs scratched
By harrow and plough,
Shorn by sheep
Reeking of time.
From Cradle to Arn
Your hand and time
Nestle together.
And the black crow crying
Labours fruitlessly
to heaven.
The hills enfold us,
Embrace us, wrap
us
In strong green arms,
And tumble us
Into Wiltshire,
Into time,
Into love.
Tumuli full of old ghosts,
(Rise, and
are humbled),
Wind cry in the copse,
(Is
hushed to a whisper),
The black crow lonely
Crying towards heaven,
(Turns a yellow eye
Then falls silent)
All, by your touch, tamed.
And a lark breaks with ease
The heavy
pull of hills,
Breaks with song
The gray
stone
Vault of heaven,
Turns the world
To blue and yellow,
Casts out winter,
Sings in spring,
Leaving me
Swaddled in
sunlight,
Lost forever
To the rolling
greens.
Lost in time
Lost in the hills
By Her Magic
By her magic
The earth again is stripped
Leaving nature naked, raw
Against the clawing
wind.
Struck deaf and dumb
By this new world
I watch
The cold hard stars dissolve,
Down and valley rip the land,
Earth and air
divide,
To leave the raw and timeless you
Naked in the dawn's half-light.
John's Books
The dust-wrapper—now protected by
a
Removable mylar wrap—has minor
Edge and/or corner bumps;
That's the
worst you can say.
The boards are fine,
the spine unbent–
Just as John's was.
The pages are unmarked, of course,
Because he only bought the best,
Even
second-hand, and always tried
To keep
them best, covers unsoiled
Except, perhaps,
for light handling marks.
He loved his books. They lined his walls
From floor to high ceiling, on every subject,
Of all ages, poetry and prose, science
And the occult, computing and maths.
Everything. He wanted to know everything.
Except, perhaps, at the end, himself.
He couldn't stop the pages yellowing
--
Cheap papers, cigarette smoke.
Even a new edition grew old
Though he
kept it in a darkened
Room, upstairs.
The smoke got
everywhere.
This dust-wrapper has minor
Edge and/or
corner bumps.
These page edges are yellowing.
I want to email him, ask why he bought
This particular book, as I always did,
But no longer can.
And My Heart Skipped a Beat
My thrilling heart beats, steady
and syncopated,
Thrilling, thrilling,
the beat of dumb thuds, whole
And
divided, that underpins music I hear,
When you're near.
And the dumb blood beat in my
Ears becomes the quavers of my quivering heart–
I want to dance with you, glide like a swan
Across this highly-polished parquet lake
Gracefully.
And you will feel the rhythm
In my heart. So I ask you to dance now,
To slip your arm around my waist and whisk
Me across this floor.
Into the fractions
Between the beats we can insert our
Syncopations, yes, while the birds look down
On our grace through skylights and note in song
That flight is now too clumsy.
We make this
Floor and these walls into something other,
As if we were turning the room inside
Out with our beauty yet, spinning it while
The world stands still.
And O! Syncopations
Slide into the gaps in the dumb bass beats,
Four square semi-quavers that thud across
My heart now beating accelerando.
Silenced by joy the dumb jays watch dumb-beaked
A dumb-blood thud fall on the sixth quaver.
My foot stamps the skipped beat there and you smile,
Your arms around my waist, O! and we swirl
For ever across this floor made perfect
Inside the room our dance has spun around–
Dumb beat dumb dull thud dumb birds dumb fragments,
I am yes I am O!
Thic Path
If you follow Wiltshire paths
And stop to admire a plant
That Lob
would know the name of
When you,
of course, do not - Lob
Who has walked
these paths and hills
For years and
centuries past -
And if with a laugh
you call
Lob each old fellow you
pass
Who bestows on you a gap-
Toothed, gentle smile and whips his
Switch into cowslip and tall grass,
And asks of you, 'Where bist goin'?'
And when you say, 'To the Plain',
Says, 'Then follow thic path thur';
And if you follow Lob's path
Between hedges and old trees,
Feeling
the slippery chalk
Beneath your feet
guiding you
Upward, on towards the
Plain,
Where a white horse, all broken
Triangles, runs across the hills,
And you slip down a bank into
A ditch
- cut with horn and flint -
And grasping
at wind-blown grass
Haul yourself
up the other side,
You will walk,
at long last, out
Onto the down's
flat tops where
Sunlight falls on
barrows and combes.
Here larks
flute, and ravens kronk.
You
want to reach out, to touch
A sky
so wide horizons
Fall beyond your
mortal arms.
Blue dazzled in this
palace
Of light, you now know what
Old man Lob will always know:
I have
inherited a home
Of
unfailing splendour.
And
passing wonderful.
The Grave
We placed
a flower where fog and darkness
Hid
us, and prepared to break the stone
that
Stands above the grave that
received our dreams.
We hoped
to find again the peace we'd known
Before the change. But a phone rang
somewhere,
And shattered our anger.
We turned away
Startled. Then
a fog-formed shade whispered
Away
our broken dreams and memories
Of
the tomb beneath flowers and the night.
*
Now, a phone
rings again. A familiar
Voice whispers
quiet songs that soothe the dreams
Hidden in the grave, lost among the
brick
Suburbs of our now forgotten
youth.
The Ladies of Butcher's Row
There is, you see, this song I worked,
Assured in word, that once unstopped,
Had a kind of water rhythm
And sunlight
warped into its lines.
I took my words into the street
And sang to decorate the air.
One
night I sang in Butcher's Row,
Performing
for the ladies there.
They dropped their knives and changed
my song.
I tried to rule and train
this change,
But still the choir
conspired a way
To cleave and bleed
into my air.
Now it had a chopping rhythm,
And blood they warped into the song.
And such unwonted harmonies!
I
dropped to the road in awe.
The Beach at Midday
... and the seas
No longer
wash these sands.
Stay;
Your hair
Reflects
burning sun
Your white
Shirt
clings to your
Sweating body,
Clings to your breasts.
Stay;
Your softness
Is
a counterpoint
To the starkness
Of the autumn-naked trees
Whose sharp, tangled branches
Scratch at the hot sky.
Stay;
Your naked
Toes
flex in the yellow sand,
Dig
into the hot, yellow sand,
As
you sit, languid, hot,
On the
yellow sand.
This is a silent beach.
I
wipe sweat from my face.
You
pull off your sweat-
Stained
shirt, revealing
Breasts too
perfect
For these sun-blinded
eyes,
Then lay back, in cut-off
jeans,
That are tight, shrunk
by sea-water,
Against your sun-browned
body.
I ask myself:
What matters?
This is a silent beach.
Something matters;
Though
the sun is too hot,
And we, though
together,
Are still both alone,
And no waves crash on the shore,
Something matters.
Dead leaves dance by
On a
light breeze
That smells (faintly)
of salt.
You lie there perfectly still:
Tell me what matters.
You lie there, perfectly tanned:
Tell me something still matters.
There is something.
Something
brooding, something dark.
Something
dark, and empty.
Stay with me,
Though autumn
is in mid-spring.
What is it that matters?
"Hey! What matters?"
A gull sings lonely
Over
the still brooding sea.
No waves crash on the beach.
No waves grind the sand.
No waves die on the shingle.
The words form themselves again.
Silence.
Your breasts are still.
I
reach across and lift an eyelid,
Expose your blue eyes to the
blue sky
And the hot white sun.
Your irises are a beautiful
blue
Reflecting a sky that we
once knew.
But the pupils do
not dilate.
The Harbour Wall
We stood at the harbour's mouth
And screamed at the gulls
As
they swooped and cried
Over
the heaving sea;
The rest of the world seemed
lifeless,
And the sky was a grey
dead thing
That bleak mid-winter's
afternoon.
Trawlers hurried in before
Twilight and bright gulls
Overtook them; coming home wisely
As the wind began to
Scoop
up the sea in handfuls
And crash
it down again.
It is mid-winter.
And the
sea is a fluid sleeping giant
Waiting to wake and suck down
The boats to its stony ribs.
The tide came in with the waves
And pounded on the harbour wall;
The harbour wall is all that saves
The trawlers and those who trawl.
You and I felt the boom
Of
the waves against the bar—
But all the waves have ever done
Is boom and never scar.
Across the Severn Mud
The morning tide exposes
Wet mud, rippled and water fluted,
Rusting push-chair frames,
Dead
fish, traffic cones.
And upriver, suspended
By
Brunel's magic,
The Clifton
bridge;
Beneath it, the silver
river
In the gorge.
Across the ripples and flutes,
Face wrinkled as the Severn mud,
Walks an old man in galoshes.
He digs beneath the surface
Where the worm has left
Its
tell-tale coil.
He turns up a water-fat worm.
The worm is placed, measuredly,
Between the thumb and finger
Of each water-wrinkled hand.
Then:
With a sudden spasmodic
violence
He jerks his hand along
the worm,
Ejaculating briny fluid
in a
Glittering spumy arc.
Another worm is tossed to the
bucket.
Then he moves on.
The Coastal Prayer
The nights are cold now
And
the sun shines above the
Cold
clear water.
The gull swings
Bright as snow
Across the
sea.
And across sea
The sun
and the boats,
And the single
mine
Floating prickly
As a
porcupine
In the water
Cold
as a fridge
Rusting in the
Yellow low tide
Harbour.
And the tides
Mark out the
Sea's time,
And all of time
And all the time
And all
the time in the
World -
World within
World without,
World without end.
Amen.
The Sand
The sand is hot and white;
A naked crescent
Contoured by
wind and sea,
Stretching into
the haze
Where blue and blue
Meet
Dissolve
At the distant point
Where
distance dissolves
And sea grinds
sand
And sand is all
And
all that is
Is the grain.
The grain
Is a broken captain
And his boat.
Death divides
Sea and air—
The air can feed the sea
But
only sea can
Drink the blood,
Eat the skin,
And grind white
bone
To fine white sand.
Hedgerows
At the margins of the made land
Lurk wild wood, hedgerow – strand
Upon strand of hedgerow—wild waste,
Barren fields, ponds; all embraced
By the cultivation of the made land.
Cultivation
Furrow upon furrow, curving
Into the brown distance.
The
marly sod, cut and churned.
The curving wounds
Delineate
the topography.
Margins
The narrow margins
Shelter dying things,
The things with
Nowhere else to live.
Things that, anyway, live
A narrow existence, cling
By raw claw and eye tooth
To precarious margins
Within margins.
Even within these margins,
We make our notes.
Wild!
Wild! Wild! Wilderness full of
crawling things!
They disgust
me. They have too many legs, or
none.
They have slimy feet,
leave trails of slime,
Fat, shiny
bodies full of half-digested God-knows-what,
Black bodies, black shiny bodies,
horns on their heads,
Disgusting
little devils, so small but evoking
such disgust.
Pangloss was wrong. If this is
the best of
All possible worlds,
it should not disgust me so.
Prologue
Old photos spill across the floor,
accrued
Images of hills and sunlight
and soil
And larks and birdsong
and hedgerows.
And you.
1 - Plough Song
A tractor and its shining, stainless
train
Labours across the dark
unbroken earth.
Its sharp blades
lowered wound the marly soil.
We watch bright gulls alight
and dip to claim
Fat brown worms
that thrash in freshly-turned turf.
Then we turned our eyes to
another hill.
2 - Spring Song
On Scratchbury Hill we watched
a new day dawn.
The sun that
boils the mists to roiling strings,
And warms the sap that flows through
bud and soil,
Encourages green
and gold across the downs
Accompanied
by the skylark's fluting
Hymn
to spring, hollered on an upward
coil.
3 - Summer Song
Yellow and orange flares across
the land.
A white mist forms,
drifting out of white chalk.
Dust and haze gauze the fields on
which I gaze.
Here, your
finger once traced lines in my hand.
Long evening shadows fall across
the fields
In which the spectral
shapes of roe deer graze.
4 - Winter Song
We woke to clouds, remember?
High and bright,
Like a hazy
gauze, a white net that foils
The low winter sun, and holds its
rays fast.
Verges glisten, peppered
with frosted white
Dew, each
mottled blade a cold green nail.
Our faces were cold. Our kisses were not.
5 - Even Song
Evening sun on a starling's breast
discloses
A rainbow of speckled
starlight, like oil
Floating
and coating dark starlit water.
We watched a yellow beak open.
Song rises
Into the twilight,
notes defying all
The slow darkness
at the eastern quarter.
6 - City Song
No Son of Mars
The night is moonless, deep and
dark, hiding
Barbarians, against
whose clubs and spears
I guard
the gate alone—trembling with
fear—
Yet protected by
red Mars, bright, riding
High
above the dark clouds, gliding
Fat with the blood my fellow legionnaires
Have spilled. Red Mars, war god,
hear my prayer,
Save me from
the scares and scars of fighting.
I am a Spanish auxiliary,
And
long to visit the Palatine Hil—
When freed, I shall make civil Rome
my home.
Hush! I hear a noise;
footfall in the trees.
Oh, mighty
Mars, guide my sword arm to kill
Again, guide me to the Colosseum.
There is a Force in the Sun that Moves the Planet
Ye physicists, prick your ears, for now we are going to invade your territory.1
Copernicus centred the heavenly
spheres
About the burning Sun—it
seemed ideal:
Problematic orbits
would disappear.
Or so we thought.
But soon, wheels within wheels
Were required to model Mars' backward
spool,
A meandering course so
contrary
Thus did Mars keep the secret of
his rule
Safe to him through
all these past centuries.2
Kepler studied Mars as if a lover,
Obsessed, seeking to fix its wandering
track;
Knowing that if he could
only discover
Its path, all planets
would have the same tack.
He
followed the shape of Mars' teasing
trips
Until Mars spoke, and offered
the ellipse.
Spinning the Web
A steady atmosphere is essential to the study of planetary detail3
Percival Lowell's obsessional
eye
Saw the lines between the
dots, wrought
Long canals across
his world—cold and dry—
And spun a web across his careful
thoughts:
Martians, like Bedouin,
crouched by salty
Pools of water
and long irrigation
Canals. Who
sits by oasis Daphne?
Who dug
the wide canal named Thermodon?
Earth is such a pretty prize: temperate,
Swimming in warm water. Little wonder
That we imagined Martians would
covet
This world, that their
Tripods, guns a-thunder,
Would
blast our water-rich green countryside.
There would be no princesses at
their side.
A Rover Speaks
Because scientists cannot go to Mars themselves ... they have to rely on robots4
You poor, weak humans long to
feel and sense
This red world,
cold, but wet, and not yet dead;
Alive—not, perhaps, with
intelligence,
But with green
mosses, lichens, or stunted
Plants;
bacteria, perhaps, viruses, or slimes.
Yet—unlike you—I am
now on the surface;
Perhaps I
will see these things in good time,
Safe, warm, inside my silver carapace.
Poor humans: you'd die
here in a moment—
Red and
orange sand, pink sky, small, weak
sun.
I will take a photograph.
There. It's sent.
How familiar,
yet so alien:
Rocks, small hills,
dunes; but reds without relief,
Empty, cold, and no smallest
sign of life.
Internet Love
I sit before my computer, enthralled.
Hardy rovers inch autonomously
Across sandy Arean plains toward
A crater, or inviting hills, dunes
or scree.
Landers sample the
soil, peer through the dust.
Photos and data return. I study
All this new knowledge, absorb and
discuss
It with internet friends.
Images thrill me:
Victoria Crater;
Phoenix over
Heimdall; a rusty
sea of sand rolling to
Gentle
slopes snapped by the Spirit rover:
The Columbia Hills. I love that
view.
I know little of planetology,
But now see more than Lowell could
ever see—
And I long to
stride out over Chryse
Or Gusev,
and mark the sand beneath me.
First Footfall
So, finally—after blasting
from Earth,
Coasting through
space, bored for nine months,
Intense for five hours, scared for
ten minutes—
We stare out
through the hatch at this cold world.
I would be nowhere else, with no-one
else,
But my five new-found
friends, spacefarers all,
Who
braved the black seas of space to
extend
The High Frontier.
We drew straws—sliding down
Gravity's rainbow—for whose
foot would fall first
Onthe
rusty soil we have all longed to
reach.
The smiles of my friends
betray their envy.
Others will
soon resent me: first to touch
Blood dust, first to see the aeolian
Sculpted hills and the high, hazed
salmon sky.
In the Warren
So many of us had grand dreams
of Mars—
And now we are
here, we live like rabbits.
We—the
first one hundred—inhabit
Deep caves in a chasm, safe from
falling stars
And radiation doses
that would scar
Our genes and
carve our cells. So we submit
To our new world, we flex and bend
with it.
Still—we'll learn,
experiment: ake it ours.
We'll
warm the air, fill craters with
water.
We'll plant hardy trees.
We'll build geek heaven.
Relationships
will form. Sons and daughters
Will be born. At last there
will be Martians,
Beautiful,
intelligent, natives here—
If we can only survive this first
year.
We never found Lowell's lines
across Mars,
Of course. But were
he able to look through
His telescope
now, he would see our scars
Across
the Arean sands: dirt roads
to
Small settlements, the curving
railway lines—
And canals.
How Lowell would love to see these
Long, straight, conduits carrying
the cold brines
That feed not
only towns, but plants and trees.
Though only a practical engineer,
I'm driven by the image that drives
Us all: this planet as the new frontier.
We'll pioneer newly-invented lives,
Fauna and flora. We'll see rain
and sea foam.
Our brave New World.
It'll be just like home.
The Tourist Can Always Return Home
As we flew in over the equator,
I saw water glittering in a crater.
Standing water! We landed at Ares,
The capital, and were shuttled
into the
Huge domed city.
The landscape was alien
And somehow
familiar—vermillion
Maculate
with greens of genetically
Engineered
cold-loving plants and tough trees
That looked like dwarf Douglas fir
or Scots pine.
These brave, hardy,
fools work to redesign
A planet!
The city is warm; thick glass,
And a thicker roof, an arcology
That protects these Martians
from this severe
World. I don't
know that I'd want to live here.
I am Tall and Lithe
The night is moonless: Phobos
and Deimos
Have long set. I stand
outside New Hellas,
Alone, admiring
blue Earth, bright, riding
High
above the dark clouds, gliding
Fat with water. I envy the water,
But nothing else. I am a daughter
Of Mars. I do not long for London
or Rom—
This red world,
this domed city, is my home.
I've seen photos and videos of Earth:
It too is beautiful in its own way.
But I am a woman of Martian birth,
Grown tall and lithe in Martian
gravity.
I am something more
And less than human.
I'm something other.
I'm fully Martian.
1 Johannes
Kepler, from
A
New Astronomy, quoted in Arthur
Koestler's
The
Sleepwalkers.
2 Ibid.
3 Percival Lowell, in the Preface to his
Mars.
4 Rover Mission
page, http://marsrovers.nasa.gov/science/